When I tell you you are my moon and my stars, this is why. You were born on the weekend of a Lunar Eclipse. That means the bright Full Moon passed through the Earth’s shadow. The light from the Moon was slightly dimmed that weekend, so you decided to let your light shine.
You were born at 5:00 p.m. on the 12th of February. You were born a whole week early! My due date for you was February 19th. You wanted to come into the world on your own time, a true Aquarius. Our time together passed fast. Before I knew it my little dot, had grown to the size of a gummy bear. I loved going to see you grow every week. I have lots of ultrasound pictures of you. I guess even the doctor knew mommy loves to take pictures. The best news I heard was when we passed the 3-month mark of our journey together. The doctor told mommy that things were looking good, and you were healthy. That made mommy and daddy so happy, we did so much to make sure you stuck around with us. I would do it all over again too, but I’ll tell you more about that another time.
I loved carrying you in my tummy everywhere I went. We did so much together. When I was driving in the car, I would sing to you, or tell you what we were going to do for the day. You came to work with me at the salon too. The sound of all those blow dryers, and mommy moving around all day put you to sleep. When I got home I was ready to relax, but you were wide-awake, begging for cereal, and practicing karate in my belly. What I most loved doing together was when we went to meditation. We did that for the last three months you were in my tummy. It helped mommy relax, and it prepared me for the day when you would be born.
Flash forward, guess what mommy was doing with your Tia Stephanie the day before you were born? Yard work! That’s right I was 39 weeks; about to pop, I was outside in 80 plus degree weather, shoveling dirt. Your Tia and Tio just bought a new house, and their new backyard needed some love. All day I was having contractions, these tummy pains that meant you were going to be born soon. It was a good distraction though, being outside and keeping busy. The pains were far apart, so I just thought you were saying any day now I want to come out. I didn’t know it would be the very next day!
At around 5:00 AM exactly 12 hours before you were born, Mommy’s tummy really started hurting. I couldn’t sleep anymore. Daddy had to go to work that day, so I had Nana come over and hang out with me. We decided to go to the hospital because the contractions were getting closer together. Around 9:00 AM we arrived and they put this machine on me, and I got to hear your heartbeat again. The nurse told me I was at 3cm, which means I still had a while to go. She told me to walk around the hospital for an hour, to see if that would speed things along. By now daddy had got off work and he met us at the hospital. He and Nana bought some coffee in the cafeteria, and I was just wandering random hallways, felling your kicks more intensely. After walking all over the hospital for a hour the nurse said I was still at 3cm. The nurse said to go home, take a bath, walk around, and come back when I felt my tummy pains really close together. I really wanted to try and have you all by myself, with no medicine. I knew we could do it, we were already such a great team.
I wasn’t scared; I felt very calm and focused. The meditation we took really prepared me for your birth. I even had my Hypnobirthing tracks on while I was in the bath; you know the ones we listened to on full blast every night. Just as a reminder to let my body do what it’s meant to do, and to breath you out. Let me tell you though, my lower back hurt a lot! Like really intense!! Daddy was right there with me though, he pushed on my back during those pains and it helped relieve some of that pressure. I tried to take a bite of an apple, and then I had one drink of orange juice. I threw up both times. You did not want anything to eat and you let me know. My legs started to really shake from the pain, and by now Its about 2:30 PM. I told Daddy we better go back to the hospital I could tell it was getting close.
We all got into Nana’s car and she was trying to drive fast to the hospital. It felt like a movie scene, I remember sitting on a towel just incase my water broke. It never did though. The nurse checked me and said “Wow your at 7cm, lets get you ready to have a baby”! I was so excited with how much progress we had made at home. When I was walking to the delivery room, we had to take some breaks along the way. As I held the wall and pointed my toes up to help stretch through the pains, the nurse asked mommy if I was a dancer. I thought that was sweet of her, haha. When daddy and me got to the room it was so nice. There was a bathtub, another yoga ball, and a big bed. I took one more bath, and they also gave mommy some Lavender Oil to smell to help me relax. I felt like I was at a spa! Still no water breaking, so she said if I feel like I need to push you out to let her know so she can check me.
After about half an hour of walking around, I felt like I needed to go to the bathroom, a.k.a that means we are about to meet! To my surprise I was at 10cms! That means I was able to start to push you out now! I’m not sure what time it was, but I know I didn’t push for very long. The doctor did have to break my water though. Since my back was hurting so much from all those pains, I didn’t want to lie on my back to push you out. So what I did was I laid on my side. Now that I am thinking back on it, that is a very odd position, but I always do things in my own unique way. I remember lying on my side holding to the left side of the bedrails. The nurse on my right held my leg up, and daddy was by my side on my left. All I remember is pushing; the hardest part was catching my breath. I remember pushing so hard with all my might, then the Doctor told me to push again. It was hard though because I had just used all my breath to push, that I had to retake another deep breath and push again. That was really tiring, luckily though I didn’t have to push for too long.
Seven pounds, eleven ounces; twenty-one and a half inches long. My sweet Ximena, we did it together! You made me realize how strong I really Am. Not only did you make me a mother, but you also gave me my strength and confidence, and you forever changed me. You are my Moon and Stars. The love I have for you is eternal and will never fade.
Thank you for picking me to be your Mommy.
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